Well, firstly, I’d like to say Happy Thanksgiving to all of my readers who celebrate it. Today is such a wonderful day to spend with family as well as friends. To get together and socialize. My mother and younger brother just flew in today from Georgia to spend the holiday with me and I’m so excited. It’s been a while since I’ve seen either of them so I’m grateful for this opportunity. My brother has been talking to our mom about moving here to Michigan to live with me because he wants to get closer to God and receive the Holy Ghost and nothing makes my heart more full than hearing that. It’s a warming feeling whenever someone wants to know more about how God operates and when they want to build a relationship with Him. I mean, that’s what we were put here on earth to do, right? Spread the gospel of Jesus Christ and be a light for others to see. So we’ll be finishing up some cooking for the day and then discussing how we can make him moving here for his last two years of high school a reality. But let’s move on to the title of this post!
So two days ago, my husband and I were on our way to Canada to buy a car he found on Craigslist. I was already a little skeptical being that we had to travel a bit inside Canada to purchase the car and was thinking to myself, “You couldn’t find a car in Michigan?” But on we went. I had a passport from when I studied abroad in Senegal my senior year in undergrad so I was fine. My husband has never been out of the country so all he had was his license and a copy of his birth certificate. So of course we got pulled to the side upon crossing the (border?) and we had to go inside to get our car searched and to be interviewed by customs. Now as Christians, we all know that a sinner is a sinner. It doesn’t matter if you’re a liar or a murderer, they are both considered sin in God’s eyes (until you repent and ask for forgiveness 🙂 But to gloss over specifics, let’s just say my husband had a past. The officials (officers: I don’t know what to call these people lol) interviewed my husband over something he had to get fingerprinted for in 2011. They were scrambling to find a law/crime that was equal to what he was charged for in the states. They were obviously struggling seeing as how they had to pull out their manual and constantly keep consulting with the other officers as to what would be a suitable charge.
The tunnel to go back to Michigan was going to be closing soon and they had yet to figure out what they wanted to do. Mind you that by now, we’d been sitting for over an hour waiting for them to finish the interview and figure out their decision. Finally, they said that they couldn’t come up with anything and that my husband couldn’t come back to Canada until 2021. So I was beyond upset because I was already tired from being at work and stuck in traffic only to come to Canada and not be able to get the car. One thing I’m working on is my patience and my tolerance level. Most people say I’m patient when I tell them that I’m a Head Start teacher, but it’s like patience can vary depending on the situation or the environment. I’m trying to be consistent with my patience no matter where I am. The bible says the following:
“Be not hasty in thy spirit to be angry: for anger resteth in the bosom of fools.” Ecclesiastes 7:9 (KJV)
“Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath.” James 1:19 (KJV)
Although I know that I didn’t necessarily do anything wrong as far as being upset for having to wait so long, I did notice that I was a little snappy on the way home and highly irritated, which affected those around me. I know I have to work on my patience and my reactions when things don’t go my way. Which leads me into how I almost lost my job!
So this year I have quite a few children in my class with behaviors, challenges, etc. However you want to phrase it. I have a child with autism, a type 1 diabetic who I have to administer insulin to after meals, and another child who’s on the spectrum for something. I filled out paperwork to get someone to come and monitor him. With this last child, he has severe separation anxiety. He clings to his mom for dear life and has tantrums when she leaves, throwing himself against the door and throwing his body backwards towards the floor. As you can imagine, it is a struggle to keep him safe while still making sure the other 15 kids are doing what they’re supposed to do. I do have a teaching partner, but it’s hard for both of us. So one day, He was having one of his mornings as usual as he threw himself backwards. As a reflex, I grabbed his head and somehow this happened:
I was beyond upset because as you can see, my pinky nail was my pride and joy! But his behavior and crying and tantrums has begun to take a toll on me. At times, my head hurts, my body hurts, and I become frustrated. But I try to remember why I became a teacher in the first place and I remember that the job I have is a testimony in itself. I really feel like God is working on me in various parts of my life. Galatians 6:9 tells us to not grow weary in doing good and that there’s a season for everything. So in addition to having patience and not growing weary, I have to remember to trust that God wouldn’t put more on me than I could bare. I don’t know who this post is speaking to, but stay positive despite your current circumstances. Trust that God will make a way out for you and that sometimes He wants to see what kind of attitude you’ll have during your trial. Always remember that your attitude determines your altitude. If you’re praying for something specific, it’s going to require you to go to the next level. The next level will require sacrifice and tough skin, but you can do all things through Christ! Have a Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Eat your heart’s desire (and go to the gym tomorrow lol) and make sure to spend time with your loved ones. Until next time!